Not Mine to Throw!

Not Mine to Throw!
The job that I've been given is far more complex than even I can see,
I've been given strict directions to relax and better me!
"Relax, have fun and in every way reduce your stress"
that's what I have been told and the doctors expect no less.
But still I am stressing letting the world's preconceived explanations (the self-imposed ones) get to me,
If only the daily battles I fight everyone else could get a glimpse of-- could see.
Now that is unrealistic, this battle is mine and mine alone,
however if I think that I am alone let me be the one to cast the first stone.