Today?

Waking up this morning excitement fills my mind,
Today is but a present, who knows what you're going to find?
Will today be full of adventures, uncovering the unknown a little more throughout the day,
or will it be full of surprises,
Filing my emotions with excitement,
so much I can hardly contain?
Although I've told my doctors that I write these silly poems,
that it recenters my emotions,
I guess you can call me ET,
And this is how I phone home!
Today is but a present that you can mostly control,
Are you on top, inside of, or standing over
What is your relation to this day as a hole?

Oh my goodness that is so funny, picture is so much,
When these are written it is one side of my brain
And then the reading - - - oh that's a different train!

Daily Adventure Already?

Woke up to take care of business early in the morning  Deciding that I have night vision I didn't turn on the light. I knew my clothes for tomorrow were draped near the toilet but it was early so I also didn't want to risk totally waking myself up by turning on the light (writing this story without using voice texting and taking forever to key this in IS NOT totally waking me up, psh)!
Doing a perfect pirouette when it only needed  to be 25° pirouette to make it on the toilet, I landed on the floor knocking my horse therapy outfit into the large porcelain dish of water. Oh no! I need  to throw my pants in the dryer. If I turn on the dryer it might be a disturbance so I will drape them. I sure hope horses don't mind a wet rider!
Hahaha!

Things we take for granted.

I read slow and my brain goes fast. Even while I was working at a school I wasn't too fond of reading, but when students needed it, I would read. I have been asked several times by eye doctors, therapists, counselors, and other professionals if I see double. I answered no in utter confusion because I'm not quite sure what that would look like.
I do enjoy reading devotional and inspiration books as they are mostly short passages I sometimes refer to sections of the Bible that can be looked up on the computer for easier tracking. After receiving His Princess, Love Letters from Your King (a small, devotion like sectioned book) yesterday, I have decided that I want to read this actual book everyday and reflect on the fact that with my type of brain injury I am so lucky to be able to read even though it might be slow. Often times there are things that we do so naturally that we just take them for granted, and even though I don't do it so naturally now I still take the ability to read and even to see for granted. Recently I was told that to think about three things that I'm grateful for before beginning the day. This morning I am very grateful that I can read, I'm grateful that I don't have double vision and I'm thankful for my vacation home.

Art

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Starbucks #11919

     Josh when I went into the Falcon Starbucks in the Safeway and were spending some Kimi and Joshua time. I hadn't given him $5 for his Starbucks card. When he purchased the two things he needed to in order to fulfill a star streak ending today it was more than $5. As I was pulling out the change a stranger, Mr. Bill behind us said, “here I will just pay for it. What did you say oh I will just pay for it.” An absolute complete stranger but he is part of the family of God! This reminds me a song from my childhood at First Baptist Church in Security, family of God! As I previously mentioned, I have been given complete peace about life and how I've had sudden changes arise. The only thing that I'm a little unsure about is because I haven't yet found a job although I went to an interview and it was so amazing! But I still do not know about that job. And if you will please continue to pray with me about finding a job. The song Trust and Obey is playing in my head.

The Lost Earring

           I was recently given amazing earrings by my future stepson. Filled with excitement last night as I picked out my clothes for today realizing I had a brand new pair of fabulous 60s looking earrings to wear oh, my outfit was complete. The new earrings didn't even have backs on them - - you know, the Christmas hook type of earring backs. I put them in this morning with my halfway 60s outfit for the conference and I was so excited!
           Arriving at the conference I had the new earrings in and I was thrilled to show them off. Before I even made it to the first breakout session location, I realized that one of the earrings had already fallen out. How in the world did this happen? The Christmas hook like earring backs did not stay in on one side at least... I was devastated. I told one of the ESP conference workers that I had lost my earring and I showed her about where I was that I knew it fell out but I didn't have time to look and people walking everywhere. She told me to go to the breakout session and that she would look for it. I had totally forgotten about my missing earring after all of the exciting sessions that I had been to, especially after the amazing keynote speaker, Craig Zablocki. They had given away most of the door prizes at the end of the conference and I still I had not thought about my earrings. All the sudden I was approached and handed a small bag with my earring. The amazing ESP conference worker had told me she would look for it at the beginning of the day had found my earring! Not only had this conference been absolutely amazing full of useful information, the addition to my 60’s outfit I had had been lost was found!
            I was glad I was able to bring both of my earrings back home but I was even more excited that my earrings would be fixed before the night was over. After I had explained what happened, the supplies were purchased to fix my earrings. Almost the instant I got home Joshua was excited to fix my earrings and make them secure. I now have have brand new pair earrings with wonderful securing fasteners on them.  

Discernment

I was kind of nervous about all of the events that are happening in my life however they seem to be falling together so perfectly. At the family gathering to ring in the new year I mentioned what was happening in my life. After praying about receiving clear discretion for a while, it may be happening. If it is,  why am I so apprehensive? After all, this is in God's hands.
          During a Bible study I was reminded that even if something not part of God's will, events may still fall into place-- God allowance doesn't always mean God's approval. After having a wonderful meeting with my cousin Randi I was reminded to pray for clarity along with additional benefits from God. Will you please pray with me for discernment and Stillness to hear God's voice and understand if this is what is best...
          Sitting at a different Starbucks I was not just observing other people and coming up with stories about events in their life, I conversed with the barista and talked about her enjoyment of Starbucks and the vast differences between two particular locations. Eventually I was sitting there composing this story watching Charles play cards with his children... and every so often I would get a huge squeeze and an “I love you Miss Kimi” from one of the boys. Pestering the two random strangers in the store, the second one, Josh, was the reason we were there.
         Josh explained his college plans at Colorado Christian University and as child- like excitement welled up in me I explained my time at CCU. I gave him a quick summary of what I was trying to handle and...THIS JUST NOW ENTERED MY MIND, I've sought God's, family member’s, and friends approval but what about mine? What do I think? Yes, certain areas differ from the “norm” in each of our lives tremendously due to what life has handed each of us, but will dealing with these be fun? I am often told that I can ask for as many opinions as there are stars in the sky, but it all comes down to my decision. Side note: Frontal Lobe damage hinders decision making which could be why I write blogs before deciding-- I write them,  sleep on it, re- read them being removed from the situation (I don't always remember what I am dealing with). Then I think about what I would do if I were her. Remember that I am actually her.
Back to the story, I have sought God and Godly counsel but now it is up to me… Signing out as I attempt to be still...